one to many

CRASH

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 14:11:18 GMT

those
police
reports
always
make
me
look
so
stupid
!

Life is so interesting..

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 19:21:01 GMT

so many thoughts are trying to be cleared in my head.
her mom has it.
what are the chances.

I am very lucky.

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 07:38:40 GMT

I've spent a great deal of time by myself feeling sorry for myself because of the friends who have seemed to let me go or drop me. I've spent far to much time complaining and worrying about saving those friendships. I have mistakenly ignored the great friendships I have. I am very lucky to have friends that will not leave my side. No matter what I do, how busy I get, and how obnoxious I can be. They are still next to me. During the times I feel down, I find myself reevaluating all of the people who have left me and why they have. I have not looked next to me to see the people still here. I have nothing to complain about. It amazes me they have stuck by my side for so long.
I hope they know I am here for them equally.

Thank you! THANK YOU! Thank you.

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 15:02:12 GMT

fuck you porphyria.

: ]

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 02:07:57 GMT

We reflect on miscommunications
And misunderstandings
And missing each other too
Much to have had to let go

Turn our music down
And we whisper
"Say what you're thinking right now"

Tell me what you thought about when you were gone
And so alone
The worst is over
You can have the best of me
We got older
But we're still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 23:59:29 GMT

unstable.

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 21:10:31 GMT

so far july is my favorite month.

I'm high as a kite I just might stop to check you out.

Wed, 23 May 2007 00:09:52 GMT

Finally, everything is done.
The summer has started!
I have so much work to do in my room.
I can't wait for nicer weather.
and NYC.
I'll write more later, bitches.

Mon, 07 May 2007 04:47:34 GMT

Dear Chelsea,
An answer to your plea!
Lately things have been hectic. I can't wait for this semester, and my first year of college to be over with. I'm pretty far behind on a few papers and with a teacher that assists me with my procrastination they will not be handed in tomorrow as well. But only 10 days left! (who's counting?)This past week has been pretty crazy with my extended family. With the loss of my Aunt Grace towards the end of the week I hope things can only go up from here. I am excited for this summer. First for the return of my friends and hopefully the return of some great times at the park. I don't mind that it sounds immature. I will be working every Monday through Thursday. Hopefully the summer will be filled with awesome adventures and multiple trips to NYC. I've been doing some research on my plans of going to Africa. I just have to find the right weeks and times. I'm also thinking of visiting India as well. There are a lot of Volunteering opportunities there that I have become really interested in.
A few weeks ago a great speaker named Ramona Africa came to speak in light of religious tolerance week. (http://www.dissidentvoice.org/Articles5/Bennett_Ramona-Africa.htm) she also talked about the MOVE organization.(http://www.onamove.com/)
I am really interested in and hope to find other people interested in supporting the MOVE organization in this area. Also, a friend of Ramona, talked about the Mumia Abu-Jamal case.(http://www.onamove.com/mumia/)Today I went into work early and took out two books Mumia wrote during his time on death row. Also I watched a video on his case. I am convinced he is wrongly convicted. I know if I had my license I would drive to Philly on the 17th. It will be Mumia's last appeal attempt and it so happens to be the day after my final exam.... I wish there was something I could do.
I am also planning on getting a tattoo over the summer....well, as soon as possible!(http://static.flickr.com/90/279087961_ac3d38bfb9_o.jpg)

Well I've gotta get going, Happy Monday... and Good Luck to everyone on their finals and trips back home!

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 01:31:46 GMT

I'm so glad you stayed last night!

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 20:46:11 GMT

I just picked up a third job.

And I still feel like I wont have enough.:-/

alot of people whisper here, is it about me?

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 01:47:21 GMT

College has been pretty interesting, I love my classes, and I love a good handful of friends here as well. For some reason, I am completely unhappy here though.
I'm not really sure what to do about it.
This is the best school for me to do what I want to do.
The best opportunities are right.here.
But I feel like I'm going to explode here.
It's close to being unbearable.
who knows.
Everyone else seems to be having a better time.
I think I don't mind as much as long as everyone else is having a good time.
sometimes people have to have a shitty time.
I'm sure It's something I'm doing wrong.
I can't, for the life of me, meet new people.

But if I look at it all, it seems like everything is good and I shouldn't have anything to complain about.
eh.

Yesterday I went to the Band Comp here, I helped out a bit and played some mean football.
It was fun, I've missed football alot.
after football dave and i got coffee and something to eat at friendly's and then we walked to campus,
we hung out until the sun came up and then went to sleep.
around 1 Mara and Marc came by and brought us to Rudy's
It was nice.
I was called into work from 2-5. I met a new kid Josh and we seem to have a few things in common, :-)

I can only hope things will get better.
I miss you all <3

" maybe you shouldn't have wanted to play wiffle ball so bad"

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 16:33:08 GMT

EXPLOSION!!
wow. right.
It's so much easier for everyone else.
right.
why don't I fit in, ANYWHERE!?
right?
Aquaintances aren't enough right now.
luck.
lucky.
right?
right.
I knew.
they.
would.
be.
better.
better.
better.
better.

damnit.

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 04:23:51 GMT

what an awful feeling.

sigh.

Happy Tuesday.

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 01:57:26 GMT

I LOVE ^COFFEE AND ^{GRILLED CHEESE.}

forever, and ever, and always.

NYC

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 21:46:40 GMT

The New York City trip was a great time.

We rode trains and subways*

We had the best hotel ever. *

We saw the Phantom Of The Opera *

We saw the Yankees kick some Canadian butt *

We Visited China Town *

We Visited Central Park *

We Visited the American Museum of Natural History *

We went to Starbucks, Alot :-)*

We saw Taladaga Nights*

And I had the best vacation ever with the best people ever <3

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 03:10:24 GMT

NYC tomorrow, well.. 6 hrs away. <3 I should go pack! :-*

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 14:37:40 GMT

the childrens parade went well, even though it was in the rain..

necrosis came in 2nd place but i thought they were 1st place.( kickkkkk asss)

quarter machines are addicting

you can win a turtle

trolly button, 2 dolla'

another $4 cd

hawiian fuckin ice.

relish the tilt <3

thom turner and his ba-anndd

the finale of a kick as show!

*

work <3 $$$

fireworks

*

hawaiian ice

all

day

then

PLANNING FOR NYC <3

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 15:33:11 GMT

5 days until NYC :-)

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 02:23:02 GMT

you pulled it off.

I am impressed.

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 20:46:31 GMT

Open up your media player. Load up all your MP3s. Set it to random/shuffle. List the first 20 songs that play. No cheating. Bold the one you find the most embarrassing (if there is one). Italicize your favorite. Underline your least favorite. Post your list in your journal so others can mock and scorn and laugh

1. Nappy Roots - Aww Naww Rock remix w/ POD
2. Public Enemy - Fuck The Police
3. Tilly and the Wall - Fell Down The Stairs
4. Pantera - Cemetary Gates
5. They Might Be Giants - The Guitar
6. Project Pat - Chicken Head
7. The Doors - Break On Through
8. Dave Matthews Band - Grace Is Gone
9. The Network - Spike
10. Limp Bizkit - Break Stuff
11. Usher- You Remind Me of a Girl
12. Sting/ The Police - Message In A Bottle
13. Jack Off Jill - Angels fuck and devils kiss
14. Otep - T.R.I.C.
15. Oasis- Wonderwall
16. Eisley - Memories
17. Elvis Costello - Veronica
18. No Doubt- Ex-girlfriend
19. Sia - Breath Me
20. Fastball - So High Above Me

wow!

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 04:11:23 GMT

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

_______________________________________________________________

TAKE ME BACK, FUCKIN' TAKE ME BACK!

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 05:41:05 GMT

Today Carolyn Dave and myself went somewhere.
It was the best place i have ever been,
in a very long time.
It was so blissful.
It was a great trip, and we were back in time..
wow, fuckin' amazing.

maybe i'll post pictures, ha...
but its a secret place!

After we returned home i got ready and went to the senior dinner dance. Care and I wore sort of matching outfits, it was awesome.
I danced. I didn't think it would happen. But it was a great time!

Afterwords we went to friendly's and came back here for a little while <3

what a day...

The trip was unforgetable..
thankkk youu!

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 12:49:24 GMT

Happy Summer!

Actually today I have one more semi- important test.
MATH B THREE AHHHH
I figured I have made it into a handful of colleges with out my advanced diploma.
It would be really nice to have though.
really nice.
I suppose I'll try my best.

Nights already with some of the greatest have been fun <3 This summer will be amazing.
I Don't have much to write about, the senior picnic was nice, I probably should have talked with more people but it's hard for me to imagine me talking to them ever again. What would I have said?
The last day of school was weird, I still don't feel alot of emotion about it.
After school carolyn and i enjoyed the B Ville Diner and a neat bookstore.

I will do my best this summer to stay in touch with everyone, It's going to go by fast, but it will be so much fun! I'm almost certain I'll be working at BOCES for guitar or photography maybe? and i was offered an internship at the Youth Bureau I'm going to persue. I have to find another job to fund many road trips( NYC trip-ers, I can not express enough how excited I am <3 ) as well <3 and as soon as I can I'm going to start training at Penfield!

Happy Summer to Everyone! <3

TURTLES!

Sat, 13 May 2006 23:44:42 GMT

My Uncle brought over two quarter size baby turtles today that he found in his yard! :-D
SUNY Oswego Allows turtles so hopefully i can bring them next year.
Their names are Estella and Ethan :-*